Friday, April 3, 2009

The story contd...

Jaya did not feel alive today no matter what she did she felt a dead weight inside her. When she could take it any more she locked her bedroom door and fell on the bed like a log. Her body shuddering with sobs, she cried her heart out like a little girl. When she came to her seses she decided to call Krisna.She looked for her diary, her mind hazy she dropped all books on the floor as she absentmindedly rummmaged the table for her phone book. When she found it she found it difficult to focus her attention. She dialed wrong numbers thrice before she got through to Krisna."Krisna this is Jaya i want to speak to you Krisna"there was silence on the other end, then his deep voice, which she had always found like the sound of rolling waves in the ocean, came alive."Jaya are you all right, you sound very disturbed to me"he had sensed her pain,"I am disturbed Krisna what do you expect?You appear suddenly and want me to leave my husband to accompany you to Japan, how can you expect such a thing?Krisna had cut her in mid sentence,"Jaya you belong to me you have always belonged to me my love fate was cruel to create that misunderstanding, why should we suffer for what was not our fault."Jaya thought of the day when rumeours of Krisna's marriage had reached her mother. A cousin had come from US and broke the news to her parents, it was always taken for granted that they both would get married. This news had enraged her father and he had immediatly stormed to Krisna's house for explainations, his parents were unable to prove this rumeour wrong and in a fit of rage Jaya's father had agreed to marry her to his classmate's son, Shiv who had admired Jaya secretly and was thrilled to get her as a wife. Shiv was highly qualified and very handsome, her parents had emotionally worn her out in those weak moments and in a daze she had walked the seven rounds around the sacred fire,when Shiv had applied red 'sindur' to her head and when he had tied the gold 'mangalsutra around her neck she did not remember. She had found her husband a very balancd and kind man.Jaya had come back to present with a start as she heard Krisna's worried voice"Jaya...Jaya..are you there, are you not feeling well little one."Today Jaya had to tell him that she could not destroy a life which had nothing to do with their mistakes."Krisna i request you, forget me i am married now, i belong to Shiv and he should not suffer for our love, go join your new posting, time will heal us of this Krisna."There was silence again on the other end,"you will come to me Jaya take your time, you do not belong any where, but by me and your heart will drag you back to me."Jaya was quiet, she did not know what to say"You know Krisna how weak i am and how you have absolute control over my heart, have mercy on me, i have loved you with all i had and now i don't have anything to give, i am myself a hollow shell Krisna."She wiped a tear from her cheek,"have mercy my Krisna"she had sobbed and he had felt his heart tearing."I will call you later Jayu you lie down you are not well right now, i should not have surprised you in the morning."He waited for her to switch off as he gently kissed her bye. Jaya looked out of the window, sun was setting against green branches of mango tree, birds were returning to their nests was it time for her to return to her soul, her Krisna?........To be contd.....

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